Who He Was

He was glad to finally realize what it was that he was feeling even though this realization made him realize that what he was was a fraud and an impostor.  He didn’t mean to be a fraud and an impostor but it worked out in such a way that he was the kind of fraud and imposter that didn’t even realize himself that he was a fraud and an impostor.  He truly believed that he was who he had tricked himself into believing he was even though he never truly knew who he was and was never fully comfortable being who he thought he was.  Once he knew who he really was, he knew why he often felt such discomfort with himself and he was amazed that he had deceived himself in such a way that he hadn’t even realized he had deceived himself.  It had all happened so naturally and organically that he wondered if it was what they meant when they said pathological.  Then he wondered, was he pathological?