His Bankrupt Heart

He didn't mean to frivolously spend more love than he had but he had and once he did his heart suffered a bankruptcy that he hadn’t realized but eventually experienced when he was in one of those moments where all you need is love but instead the emptiness of his heart dragged him down and made him feel so heavy.  He willed himself to do what someone with a heart full of love would do but everything he did felt insincere and meaningless because he was simply making the motions, which was difficult because of the heaviness.  Without love he couldn’t sustain the weight of the meaninglessness so eventually he failed much to his own disappointment but which lead him to the suspicion that he might have a bankrupt heart.  He stood in front of the mirror and peeled back the layers of skin and muscle. With a spoon he pried open a wider space between his rips to look through so that he might see what was happening with his heart but he couldn’t actually see inside of his heart to know what was going on.  Part of him didn’t want to look because he didn’t know what he would find but he knew he had to look inside to know for sure if he had a bankrupt heart.  He slowly turned the knob and applied a gentle force to open the door to his heart and braced himself for what he might see.  Once the door was open and he looked inside he simply saw that it was empty, which he thought to himself was what he should have expected to find since he had thought he might have a bankrupt heart.  His suspicions were confirmed and he wondered what to do as he stood there in the mirror looking at his bleeding chest and the door to his heart dangling open, the hinges creaking with each breath, when suddenly a rush of something came from somewhere and swooshed past him, summersaulting into his chest, filling up his empty heart.  Feeling the weight of whatever it was, he instinctually closed the door, removed the spoon and placed two band-aids over the flap of skin that he so recently peeled back for the exploratory procedure he performed on himself.  He considered the new feeling in his chest as he shifted his weight from one foot to the other and smiled realizing how much he really loved everything.